April 19, 1982

It is so difficult sometimes to get my thoughts through to others. But what is important is that I really do trust my own personal judgments. But I do trust others because I believe that they believe what they are saying. That's why I can't say to someone - I DISAGREE! How wrong! Others should believe in what I say - but they don't and I know that I am to blame for that, but I don't know why. I really trust my judgment. Norman Mailer was saying last night that because of his thing with Abbott, he no longer feels he can trust himself. I understand.